I asked God to straighten out my broken life

by Chris
(Palm Bay, FL USA)

I am in my 50s and have been a lifelong Christian. Through my own fault, I had let my life flounder and got to the point where I prayed for God to take over my life and let His glory shine through me.

The truth of my life is that I am gay. When I was growing up I was picked on and beat up when I was in elementary school then demeaned when I was in junior high and high school. To survive I constructed an elaborate facade under which I hid my being gay. Until my prayer I knew I was different, I just didn't know how different.

My prayer has resulted in my Faith having grown significantly. Each day I can see God working in my life. As my Coming Out process marches on, I see the emergence of my gay self as God's work in my life.

Today I am not out except to a very few people. I am married and have been for about 20 years. I am just now nearing the time where I will come totally out. I am not quite there yet, but I know I won't have much further to go. I pray for God's help as this life changing decision nears. Isn't it amazing how God works in our world?!

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Mar 18, 2013
by: Anonymous

I am right where you are at. You pray for me and I will pray for you

Apr 11, 2013
by: Anonymous

I thought I was the only guy in my 50's married with children and a Christian who was (is) secretly gay. Don't know if I will ever have the courage to come out.

Rick's comment: You are not alone. There are many gay guys who got married, thinking that would "cure" them. Walk with the Lord, ask Him for grace and joy and He will give you light for the path.

Apr 11, 2013
by: Anonymous

Thanks Rick, I think reading about Ray Boltz and his story really got me to thinking a lot. It's just so tough hiding who you are So glad I found this site.

Dec 29, 2013
How do I ask?
by: Elisa

I am not gay but I do need God to walk with me. To strengthen my faith, to give me peace during a tough trial in my life - Mom dying of cancer and my health failing at this crucial moment.

How did you ask? How did you pray? I need more than ever to blindly trust him or I won't be able to go through this. I need to let go my worries, my anger at the situation, my frustration

I'm glad you were heard and that He walks with you. Thank you. - Eli

Rick's comment: God has good news and peace of mind for us when we believe what He says in the Bible. The most important question to answer right now is: Am I sure that I am saved?

Many Christians are cultural Christians. They grew up in church. They are religious. They try to do the right thing but they've never personally received Jesus Christ as their Savior from sin.

Why do so many young people quit church?

The best preparation for being a disciple of Jesus is to know for sure you are saved. Everyone needs to be saved from sin and from hell. Here is what Jesus taught about hell.

Jesus teaches Hell 101

Getting saved and becoming a disciple of Jesus means not trusting your good works, baptism, sacraments, confirmation, being a cultural Christian or grace allegedly flowing from a church and instead, trusting by grace alone through faith alone in Jesus Christ alone to save you.

How to get saved right now.

Once you know you are saved, it helps to understand what happened when you got saved.

What happens when you get saved?

Once you understand what happened when you got saved, it helps to understand how long you are saved for. Is your salvation temporary or eternal?

How to have eternal security

Prayer is a believing heart talking to God and willing to receive answers which best fit God's will.

Please pray for Eli and her Mom in their time of need.

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