My new begining

by Kevin Becker
(Canonsburg, PA )

Rainbow barn by Andy Waddington

I grew up in a Catholic home and that is what I see myself as. Growing up I always felt a love for Christ. Jesus is my first love! I came to Christ when my grandmother told me about the Gospel and I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior.

My joy knew no bounds. But as I grew and became older I noticed my feelings for men were more then friendship. I knew I was gay yet I could not understand why I was gay. My grandmother's church said it is because of demons that people become gay but I love Christ! How could the loving Lord let me become a host for demons?

I wrestled with myself, with my faith and my sexuality. I prayed and prayed. Finally an answer came in the Gospel of John, where at the Last Supper, Jesus was with His apostles. John was resting on the bosom of our Lord. I smiled and said to myself: "Lord, I know you have no sexuality but clearly you know love is beyond gender!" Then I read the Gospel of John again and I came across John 3:16-18.

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.

Scripture says clearly of itself: The word of God is not bound, 2 Timothy 2:9, and that is the truth. No race, no sexuality or nationality binds the Gospel. It is for ALL OF US! Once again the Lord used His word to show me He loves me and I am accepted by Him!

Then the final answer to my prayer came when I read the lives of Saints Serge and Bacchus. The Lord opened my eyes! Lord, you love all men and you want them to get saved just as you made them. This is how I accepted myself and came out to myself.

Now it was time for my parents to accept me, I told them one night and they were very angry. But in all of it the Lord held me tightly. Despite the tears I shed and disagreement with my family, Christ the King was there. What I am saying is this. Even if your own parents deny you, Christ will never leave you or deny you.

When my father and my mother forsake me, Then the Lord will take me up. Psalm 27:10

Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. Hebrews 13:5

Christ saves you just as you are, right where you are, just as He made you, IN HIS IMAGE. And God does not change your sexual orientation when you get saved. Gay people also are made in God's image! There is no reason to fear, no reason to worry. God loves you always! - Kevin.