A Transgender Comes Out

by Dix Dixon

Hello, my name is Dix. First, and most importantly, I am saved, sanctified and filled with the Holy Spirit. I am a child of the Most High King. God is my Father, Jesus is my big brother and Savior, and the Holy Spirit empowers me.

Second, I am a person, a human being with feelings.

Third, I am transgendered; a man inside a female body.

Everyday I thank God for my life, past, present and future because He created me as I am.

"13 For You did form my inward parts; You did knit me together in my mother’s womb...

15 My frame was not hidden from You when I was being formed in secret and intricately and curiously wrought as if embroidered with various colours in the depths of the earth, a region of darkness and mystery.

16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance, and in Your book all the days of my life were written before ever they took shape, when as yet there was none of them."
- Psalm 139:13-18

In the beginning, God looked down through the eons of time and saw each and every one of us. He knows everything about us because He created us as we are. He knew that on the 9th of September, 1940, a transgendered baby, a male inside a female body, would be born in Malagash, Nova Scotia, Canada. I was that baby.

As far back as I can remember, I knew I was a male. When I began talking I would often tell anyone who called me a girl, “I am a boy.”

Because I was always called a girl I had to wear little girl's clothes, which I hated and was very uncomfortable in. It was a confusing time in my life. No one who is one or two years old can understand why they feel and act one way, when their body is the opposite. God created me as I am, different inside than out.

My heavenly Father saw that as a child I would quickly learn that when the challenges of life got more than I could handle; I would find a place to be alone. I would just talk out my frustrations and from somewhere I would find comfort and peace that would sustain me through those hard times. At that young age I did not know it was God there with me.

My grandmother and mom never got along. When one would tell me how to do things, the other would say it was wrong. Mom was a hateful, miserable person and her words and actions toward me showed that she didn’t love me or want me. I don’t remember her walking, but have pictures of her and I when I was a baby and she is standing, but she developed rheumatoid arthritis and was confined to bed.

Her horrible attitude drove my father away when I was just about five. She didn’t want me and tried to have me put in an orphanage, but dad would have taken me. She wouldn’t let him and kept me out of spite and made my life miserable.

The summer when I was 9, an Evangelist came to the community and held meetings in the one room schoolhouse. I went to one of the services with my grandmother. At the alter call I went forward and accepted Jesus into my heart. Oh what a wonderful feeling I had. When we returned home and I excitedly told my mother, her remark to me was, “What the hell did you do that for, you will never live up to it.”

After I accepted Him into my heart I had an awesome relationship with my Lord and Savior. I knew, God loved me and He was always right beside me watching out for and protecting me. I praise Him that all through my life He has truly been a friend who sticks closer than a brother. I can talk with Him and feel His sweet presence with me.

Being transgendered caused me to struggle all my life. Many times I tried to commit suicide I grew up uncomfortable with how I had to dress and was expected to act.

Through all the hurt and rejection, my heart's cry was just to be accepted and loved. I knew God loved me but I also wanted and needed people to see me as the person God created, and love and accept me as well.

I now clearly see that God allowed everything that happened to me, all the confusion and hurts, so I could be a witness to and help those He brings across my path and give them love and encouragement.

While I have always known I am a man in a female body, I never really understood why. My feelings for the opposite sex began to kick in as I became a teen, and I was attracted to girls. Then all the things my body started going through were so disgusting to me. I was so miserable inside I felt the only way out was to kill myself.

When I was 18 I joined the RCAF, mainly to get away from home and all the verbal abuse and emotional hurt. Up until that time I had never heard the words gay, lesbian or homosexual. Hearing how others talked about these people gave me a sick feeling. After listening to the repulsive things said about them I was sure I didn't want to be one of them. Yet I was very confused and definitely not happy because of how I felt inside and how my body was.

During this time I decided I had to do the things society demanded a female should do. I met a man and got married. While he was a very nice person, I was not in love with him and hated performing my "wifely duties," but felt I had to. We had two daughters and when I was pregnant with them I felt it was the most horrible thing that ever happened to me. I wanted to die! Again I tried suicide.

The wonderful result to not succeeding at suicide is; I have two beautiful daughters, three grandsons, a granddaughter and a great-granddaughter born April 9th, 3012, who are so awesome. I love them all dearly, and am so very proud of each one.

After 16 years of marriage, my husband and I decided to separate. Until his death we did stay friends. He understood who I was inside but never spoke of it and respected me as a human being.

I have never tried intentionally to be something I am not. I disliked the body I am in because it does not display to the world who I really am. At times I struggle with it but I understand I am just the way God created me to be. I am at peace within myself and I thank God for who I am and I will do everything I can to lead others to Him so they too can experience the incredible love He offers.

I was 60 years old when God led me to a transgendered site on the Internet, where I learned who I am and the language for it. The first testimony I read brought tears to my eyes. The young man, who was born in a female body and had gone through all the procedures for a sex change, told the story of his childhood.

I could have written that story, as he told about being raised in a home where he was never told he was loved. He was always told he couldn’t do anything right. That he was no good and would never amount to anything worthwhile. He was hated, disrespected, and many times tried suicide. He described my childhood exactly.

When I learned I was transgendered, and after all those uncomfortable years of being made to wear frills, lace and the other most uncomfortable garments ever invented for women, I took a stand.

The dresses, skirts, blouses, silk slips, even the more disgusting pantyhose and bras, along with the other horrible restraining garments, all went! In their place came comfortable mens jeans, slacks, shirts, tees, and sweats, and I felt fantastic!

When I was acting the role of female, some of those who met me back then, had a hard time, accepting me for who I really am, and really always was. Being transgendered, I am at peace within myself and I thank God for who I am. I will do everything I can to lead others to Him so they too can experience the unconditional love He offers.

In conclusion, I know God doesn't make junk. He created me special, the way I am. He is first and foremost in my life. I am His, totally and completely, to be used by Him in any way He needs, and all for His honor and glory. I am full of His peace and joy.

It doesn’t bother me so much any more what people refer to me as she, her or any other female adjective. I know who I am, and it thrills me more than words can explain, when GOD CALLS ME SON.

Jesus loves each one of us more than anyone else can because He created us. I love everyone of you as you were created.

We don't know when Jesus will return;

He could come today.

Are YOU ready to meet Him?

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Oct 12, 2010
A Husband or Wife
by: Dix Dixon


A husband or wife,
The only choices I see,
I've tried being both
But neither could be.

As a wife so unhappy,
I'm a male deep inside,
And trying to be female
I just couldn't abide.

Being a husband was better,
But that soon was done,
Now I am so happy
Being myself, having fun.

Looking back through the years,
I was never alone,
There's always been Someone
I had for my own.

Walking beside me,
And will till the end,
My Savior, my Guide,
Comforter; Best Friend.

I'm living for Jesus
Trying to follow His lead
He sees my heart
And meets every need.

So if there's no woman
He has for my wife,
Serving Him I'll be happy
For the rest of my life.

-Dix Dixon

Oct 12, 2010
What's Inside Counts
by: Dix Dixon


I was born in a body
Different inside than out,
But no one would listen
When 'I'm a boy' I would shout.

Through the years as I grew
And my hormones kicked in,
For the sex I had feelings
I was told 'It's a sin.'

With no one to talk to
No one to explain,
I lived every day
In emotional pain.

I tried many times
My own life to end,
When no one would listen
Or just be my friend.

Now I'm so happy
I've learned don't you see,
GOD created me exactly
As HE needed me to be.

So call me whichever,
But please understand,
Outside may be female,
But inside I'm a man.

What makes me feel good
When each day is done
Is that my Papa

-Dix Dixon

Oct 14, 2010
Praising God!
by: Ap Dale

Dear Dix,

I am rejoicing with you that you have found that place of sweet grace and rest in the Lord Jesus, and that you KNOW that you are accepted in the Beloved Jesus! Your testimonial stands as a witness of the goodness and loving kindness of our God!

Thank you for sharing so boldly. May the blessing of the Lord continue to make you rich and keep you from sorrow! You are in my prayers.

Sincerely and in Christ's love,
Brother Apostle Dale Jarrett
ARC Ministries Intl

Nov 09, 2011
Your story mirrors mine
by: Ross

Thank you Dix, for so open and honest and for being the brave person you are. I too am transgender, male inside a female body. Your story is identical to mine. I am still struggling to feel loved by God but I am getting there. Thank you once again from your brother in Christ, Ross

Aug 20, 2012
thank you
by: S

I literally cried when I read this

I'm 17 years old and a FtM transgender. I've known I was different for as long as I can remember, but I first consciously started disliking being female ever since I was 6 years old. I am also a saved and born again Christian and I love Jesus with all my being

I was raised in a christian household and my dad had always talked poorly about homosexuals. he made jokes about the "gay gene" all the time and convinced me that sexual orientation does not exist and it's just an excuse for sin

when I turned 14 (right after reaching puberty) I began to feel extremely uncomfortable with myself, especially my body. I couldn't quite explain what was wrong with me but I felt as though I was suffocating. I was obvlivious to the concept of LGBTs and transpeople, but I definitely felt I was in the wrong body

I made a girl-friend who I undoubtedly fell in love with and began to question my sexual orientation with fear and anxiety. I fell into a period of depression for over a year while I struggled with the fact that I was a "lesbian" although somehow it didn't feel right to say that. I honestly felt that I was a straight male and something inside me deeply wanted to be called a "he"

however I was still convinced "gay" was a sin, and suppressed my identity through pretending and believing that demons were making me feel like a boy. but one day while I was desperate because of my orientation God told me I was not a sin and I needed to do some research on what the Bible says. that was the day I opened my mind to the concept of LGBT

it wasn't until later that I learned what "transsexual" meant, and it hit me like a ton of bricks. from that moment on I began to feel more conscious of it and dysphoria turned from an occasional thought into an ongoing suffocating battle. I am still struggling with it and holding onto God, the only one who has been with me the entire time

my earthly father ridiculed me when I came out to him. he told me, "you are my daughter, not my son" which felt like a dozen knives through my chest because all I could hear was "you are not my son." I wonder and hope and pray that my Heavenly Father knows me as His son even though I look different from other guys out there

again, thank you for this testimony. it gives me hope for the future

Aug 21, 2012
To my Brother S
by: Dix

Dear S
Just read your testimony, and am so proud of you for coming out. It is hard sometimes, BUT God is always with you and He will not allow more to come upon you than He will give you the strength to get through it.

Remember God created you as you are, He loves you and so do I. You will always be in my prayers.
I am on face book so if you want to contact me you can through there, but let me know in a personal message that you are the S who responded to my testimony on here.

Your Brother in Christ
Dix Dixon

Aug 22, 2012
reply to Dix
by: S

thank you for your reply. it's relieving to know someone is out there praying for me as I go through this. God bless

Aug 26, 2012
My Church
by: Dix

Here is the web page to my church


Our service starts at 6:00 pm British Columbia time, and is broadcast over the web to all the world.

If you can watch us each Sunday evening. There are GLBT folks and straight people as well. All are welcome.

I don't know where you live, so if you are handy pleace come and enjoy the love and presence of the Holy Spirit. We would welcome you with open arms.

You are always in my prayers. Please keep in touch.
Loves ya

Oct 24, 2012
Dix, how can I find you on Facebook?
by: Carol

Hi, how can I find you on Facebook? I couldn't find anyone who I thought was you by name. I'd like to message you through FB if possible.

Oct 25, 2012
My fb name
by: Dix

I am on face book as Dix Dixon. My picture is a rock with If You Don't Praise His Name I Will.

What is your full name so I will know you?

Hope to see you soon.

Oct 25, 2012
My fb name
by: Dix

On fb I am Dix Dixon. Would love to have you contact me there

Oct 25, 2012
Re. facebook
by: Carol Ranney

Okay, off to look again on fb!

Oct 25, 2012
by: Carol Ranney

Well, I have looked at every Dix Dixon worldwide and even found a rock at the entrance of Marineland but for some reason, no luck. I'm working on a book that is aimed at encouraging Christians to become aware of their knee-jerk reaction to "gay," educate themselves and truly begin to love like Jesus. I was so struck by your testimony that I wondered if I could possibly get permission to include it? My email is ranneyclan.bhlh@comcast.net.

I can send you a draft of the book so you can see what it's like. I'm also anxious for feedback, criticism etc. If you're at all interested could you email me? Blessings, Carol

Oct 25, 2012
by: Carol Ranney

Why won't my comments post???

Rick's comment: Hi Carol - I moderate all comments instead of automatically posting them because I get lots of hate and stupidity from anti-gay christians. Because of my busy schedule, it sometimes takes a day or more before I can get to the comments. Thanks for stopping by. BTW, your book sounds really interesting.

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