A Mighty Whirlwind
(Binghamton, New York)
'Changing your mind' about your sins and your need of a Savior leads you to “receive abundance of grace and of the gift of righteousness”
which God offers us in Jesus Christ, Romans 5:17.
Repent - change your mind and believe the gospel
Mac's Coming Out Story
I never could have imagined that the day would come when I would be battling with my sexuality as well as my faith. I assumed that God would always be there for me no matter what I went through and no matter what I did. I was always under the impression that I was saved as long as I repented and believed in the Lord with all of my heart. That's what my church taught me.
Later on in life, I noticed something was different about me (cliche as it sounds, but it's true). I never felt sexually attracted to women. I would listen to my friends talk about sex and girls and none of it really appealed to me.
It never hit me that I might be gay because I didn't even know what "gay" was when I was that age. More and more I experienced attraction toward other males, whether it was in gym class or outside of school, at the grocery store or even in church. I couldn't explain it and the more I thought about it, the more I thought to myself, "Am I gay?"
I sat on that question for a number of years trying to "fix" my situation and pretending to others around me that I was attracted to females even though I always assumed it was obvious that I wasn't.
As the years passed and I began to go to church more and read the Bible more, I read passages that said things about "homosexuality." It was quite apparent that my faith was being challenged. I just kind of brushed it off until the time came when I couldn't stand who I was any longer.
I became insecure, only talking to close family members, not wanting to leave the house, not wanting to go anywhere or make any friends. I was constantly paranoid that people could tell that I was "gay."
I started over-analyzing my every thought, emotion, desire, action and began praying for repentance for something I didn't feel I had any control over.
Well, needless to say God answered my prayers in a way I could never have imagined. I began a tedious Bible research, and came up with a new perspective on the Bible. I asked questions such as "Why would God make me this way?" and "What happened in my past that I let Satan 'take control' over my life in this way?".
The more I researched, the more I found that what I had been taught in church about being gay had been nothing but someone's interpretation. That's when I finally realized that what we understand about the Bible depends on interpretation. It all depends on how we read and understand what the Bible says.
When I finally came out to my family and friends, I felt revamped, renewed and more secure. I was able to communicate better with strangers, show my true emotions, be myself, etc. It was the biggest burst of confidence I've ever felt in my entire life.
I am grateful for websites like GayChristian101 and many others that tell the truth about what the Bible teaches. I am still on my path of redemption and I believe the struggles along the way will be well worth it when I reach the end. I know that the Lord will be with me all the way.