A Mighty Whirlwind

by Mac
(Binghamton, New York)

'Changing your mind' about your sins and your need of a Savior leads you to “receive abundance of grace and of the gift of righteousness” which God offers us in Jesus Christ, Romans 5:17.

Repent - change your mind and believe the gospel

Mac's Coming Out Story

I never could have imagined that the day would come when I would be battling with my sexuality as well as my faith. I assumed that God would always be there for me no matter what I went through and no matter what I did. I was always under the impression that I was saved as long as I repented and believed in the Lord with all of my heart. That's what my church taught me.

Later on in life, I noticed something was different about me (cliche as it sounds, but it's true). I never felt sexually attracted to women. I would listen to my friends talk about sex and girls and none of it really appealed to me.

It never hit me that I might be gay because I didn't even know what "gay" was when I was that age. More and more I experienced attraction toward other males, whether it was in gym class or outside of school, at the grocery store or even in church. I couldn't explain it and the more I thought about it, the more I thought to myself, "Am I gay?"

I sat on that question for a number of years trying to "fix" my situation and pretending to others around me that I was attracted to females even though I always assumed it was obvious that I wasn't.

As the years passed and I began to go to church more and read the Bible more, I read passages that said things about "homosexuality." It was quite apparent that my faith was being challenged. I just kind of brushed it off until the time came when I couldn't stand who I was any longer.

I became insecure, only talking to close family members, not wanting to leave the house, not wanting to go anywhere or make any friends. I was constantly paranoid that people could tell that I was "gay."

I started over-analyzing my every thought, emotion, desire, action and began praying for repentance for something I didn't feel I had any control over.

Well, needless to say God answered my prayers in a way I could never have imagined. I began a tedious Bible research, and came up with a new perspective on the Bible. I asked questions such as "Why would God make me this way?" and "What happened in my past that I let Satan 'take control' over my life in this way?".

The more I researched, the more I found that what I had been taught in church about being gay had been nothing but someone's interpretation. That's when I finally realized that what we understand about the Bible depends on interpretation. It all depends on how we read and understand what the Bible says.

When I finally came out to my family and friends, I felt revamped, renewed and more secure. I was able to communicate better with strangers, show my true emotions, be myself, etc. It was the biggest burst of confidence I've ever felt in my entire life.

I am grateful for websites like GayChristian101 and many others that tell the truth about what the Bible teaches. I am still on my path of redemption and I believe the struggles along the way will be well worth it when I reach the end. I know that the Lord will be with me all the way.

Thank You.

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Aug 22, 2008
I enjoyed reading your story
by: Anonymous


I salute your courage in not giving up when things didn't make sense to you. I enjoyed reading about your journey. Your story is just another reminder that our God IS faithful.

Aug 25, 2008
God Bless You
by: Anonymous

Thank you for sharing your story with the rest of us. I recently (January 08), came to the similar conclusion as you wrote here. It gives me strength to see that God is revealing this same truth to other gay Christians. I am sure God loves us and we have a purpose in this time. Stick with God and He will guide you.
I'm so proud of you....


Jan 03, 2010
this keeps me in gods hands
by: Anonymous

I love Psalm 139. I read it from time to time thinking how awesome is my God verses 14-16 especially.
"I will praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Marvelous are your works and that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in secret and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance being yet unformed and in your book they are written."

Wow! The Lord IS my shepherd and He knows I'm Gay
and He loves me with unconditional love.

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